I’m headed out tomorrow morning for a fabulous vacation, but I am covered in a thick ooze of gloom. I’m not sure if it is because I’m tired and yet still have a ton of work stuff to do, or if it’s the lack of exposure to the new boss prior to my departure or that I’m just cranky. I do know it isn’t biological so all you who immediately jump to that conclusion need to pop off with another theory.
One thing that is bothering me is that I approached the new manager (NM) on something I needed a decision on, and even after two follow ups I’m still without an answer. I will now move forward with the assumption that the answer is no, but I have to say I’m cranky about the lack of follow through. Yes, I am being a little bit of a victim, but I think I was crystal clear about what I wanted, why it was important and when I needed an answer. I don’t feel that yet another follow up is in my best interest at this point, but I doubt that I have the maturity to just let it go.
I have a bitter little scene running through my head:
Scene – MegaBank cubicle farm near future
Coworker: blah blah blah… Zigfield Conference….blah blah
New Manager: Oh hey TPgal, didn’t you talk to me about that once?
TPgal: (with attitude) Yup, I needed your permission to arrange travel to attend and speak.
New Manager: So are you going?
TPgal: Um, no… you didn’t get back to me.
New Manager: (defensively) well, why didn’t you follow up?
TPgal: Well, after we talked three times about it I assumed that you would actually respond with an answer.
New Manager: Clearly, if it had been important to you, you would have not only met with me three times, but sent multiple e-mails, posted billboards outside my office AND put flyers on my car. Frankly, I think you’re just being a big baby!
TPgal: yes, yes I am wahhhhhhhhhhhhh
Really, I could follow up again with an e-mail or a walk-by but it’s his second damn week in the job and I really wanted him to be the kind of person who actually followed through. Honestly, the loss of the trip is beside the point.
Anyway… I’m about to eat some lunch that should even me out a little. I’m also touring the new Seattle Art Museum today, that will lift my mood somewhat.
I’ll try to post a positive message prior to my departure so you aren’t left with a week and a half of TPgal pissing and moaning.